Dinamika Pemaafan Diri pada Orang dengan HIV (ODHIV) yang Terinfeksi Akibat Perilaku Seks Berisiko

Abstract

Risky sexual behavior is closely associated with the transmission of Human Immunodeficiency Virus (HIV). Individuals living with HIV often experience guilt and shame, which may necessitate self-forgiveness to reduce these negative emotions. This study aims to explore the dynamics of self-forgiveness in people living with HIV (PLHIV) who were infected through risky sexual behavior. Drawing on Cornish and Wade’s (2015) model, self-forgiveness involves four components: responsibility, remorse, restoration, and renewal. This qualitative research involved interviews with three participants. Findings revealed that two participants, one homosexual and one heterosexual, were unable to reduce their negative emotions, while another homosexual participant was able to do so. Each participant exhibited a unique pattern of self-forgiveness. The homosexual participant who did not succeed followed a sequence of responsibility, restoration, remorse, and restoration. The heterosexual participant went through responsibility, remorse, restoration, and returned to remorse. In contrast, the homosexual participant who successfully reduced negative emotions experienced a longer process, beginning with responsibility, followed by remorse, restoration, another episode of remorse, and culminating in renewal.